May 07, 2005

This was sent to me by a friend, so I deicded to do as an exercise in self-discovery.

100 Things About Me
1. I enjoy the concept that life is circular and we must finish certain parts marked with some sort of ritual to move on.
2. I would do anything for someone I call a friend.
3. I am an idealist
4. I believe all people have good intentions even though I know it is not true.
5. I have trouble showing gratitude.
6. There are two people inside of me. A romantic and a cynic, each trying to get out.
7. I love writing with my fountain pen.
8. I like to make people laugh, ether with me or at me. It doesn't matter.
9. I abhor all the 'isms.' From racism to sexism, we will not get along if you express those views around me. I almost thew a kid of a balcony one time because of what he said about MLK Jr.
10. I fear the government will give me power to control nuclear weapons. I fear even more that I will have to use them. I fear even more that I won't be able to. I fear the most that I will.
11. I love the dark. I will sit outside at night just to listen and feel.
12. I like being big.
13. I cannot hop across rocks in a river.
14. I love to cook.
15. I hate to clean
16. I like to read.
17. I think Vonnegut ranks as one of the best writers of all times, even thought most of the time he just writes mental masturbation.
18. I hate organized religion. I feel that it has generated more hate then love.
19. I want to be a cowboy, a pirate, and James Bond.
20. I am still a little kid at heart.
21. I fear be forgotten.
22. I want to fall in love, but I have massive trouble making myself that vulnerable.
23. I use laughter as a defensive mechanism.
24. Spanish make feel stupid.
25. Many days I have thought I have thought about packing up my pack and just going.
26. I love to back pack
27. I feel a very close connection to nature. It hurts when I see the land being raped.
28. Babies scare me. That amount of responsibility is terrifying. The idea you can take this new person and fill it with goodness or badness...
29. It is very hard to offend me, so I don't understand when others get offended.
30. Used books are the best places in the world.
31. I want to own my own bar when I retire, but have it be a bar/reading room/coffee shop. I don't want a place where folks go in piss drunk
32. The mountains feel like home to me. I get uneasy when I am in flatlands.
33. Trees comfort me.
34. I have hitch hiked across North Georgia and Scotland.
35. I am shy, which I try to cover by being extremely outgoing.
36. I lay awake many nights worrying about my friends, and hoping their lives come out really well.
37. I hate losing.
38. I try to race buses, cars and other bikes when I am biking.
39. I don't mind getting dirty.
40. My parents have no idea how much I love and respect them.
41. I like the quite. People with noisy minds agitate me.
42. Many times I drink to escape myself.
43. Its very hard for me to write letters. But I try to when people make me feel special. It takes my several tries because of my hand writing and spelling.
44. I keep a journal. But its very emo, which makes me sad because my life isn't all that bad.
45. I collect knives. All my knives have a story behind them. Most of my knives have cut me at some point or another.
46. Martin Luther King Jr is one of my heros. I respect his 6 Principles of Non-violence and try to live up to them, with the knowledge that at times violence must happen.
1. Nonviolence is a way of life for courageous people.
2. Nonviolence seeks to win friendship and understanding
3. Nonviolence seeks to defeat injustices, not people.
4. Nonviolence holds that suffering for a cause can educate and

transform.

5. Nonviolence chooses love instead of hate.

6. Nonviolence holds that the universe is on the side of justice

and that right will prevail.

47. Martin Luther is another hero. His courage helped make Christianity available to people.
48. I wish fundamental anarchy would work, but I understand that people cannot be trust to work for the better of his neighbor without force and it makes me sad.
49. I love my cat
50. I like going outside and doing crazy stuff (like rock climbing, cliff jumping, etc..).
51. I like to argue. But I don't like proving points, I would rather learn.
52. I am disgusted at how wasteful we as Americans are.
53. I write really shoddy poetry, but it makes me feel better.
54. I can move with surprising stealth and speed in the woods.
55. The dark parts of my soul terrify me.
56. I am surprisingly moody person. If you don't see me for days/weeks on end, its because I am cloistered away and don't want people to see me in that state.
57. If I am sick, its best to leave me alone. A phone call to see how I am doing makes me feel good, but don't try to take care of me because then I feel like a burden.
58. I very rarely saunter, I am usual move with purpose.
59. Good pipe tobacco is one of the best things in the world.
60. If I could change one choice I've made over the years; it would have been that first cigarette.
61. I regret living with regret, but I would not change my life.
62. I would gladly take on all the pain my friends have, so they could be happy.
63. I love learning about myself.
64. I have been to Canada, St. Martin, France, England and Scotland.
65. I love my family.
66. Nothing beats the smell of spring.
67. My sense of smell is my strongest sense. I can generally tell when a person's has changed their shampoo/soap/deodorant from a few feet away.
68. I am not a touchy-feely person. I am not adverse to hugs or touching, but I rarely initiate a hug or touch
69. My body aches all the time. Some people think I should slow down with my life, but you only get one.
70. I rarely take life seriously anymore. When I was younger I was a much more serious and quite person.
71. I have days of paranoia.
72. I like people who have the balls to confront me.
73. I like people who stick to their guns when they believe they are right.
74. I like people who can admit they are wrong.
75. I am starting to like country, which is anti-everything I was brought up with.
76. I like beer. Brand/type doesn't matter. There isn't a beer that doesn't taste good.
77. I have problems making friends. I don't really know how to, and my friendships just usually happen.
78. My dad has given the best advice consistently through my life.
79. I can't spell worth two beans.
80. I like old, silly expressions. Like 'please as a prized pig' or the one above.
81. My eye sight is fading, and that disturbs me.
82. North Georgia owns my heart. I feel safe and happy there.
83. I like acting arrogant. but you can usually call me out on it.
84. I love the theatre, but most actors get on my nerves.
85. I plan to die so something incredibly stupid, but incredibly fun. When I own a kayak and parachute, start planing my wake.
86. I have a really bad memory. I am trying to improve, but my constant head traumas can't help.
87. I firmly believe in helmets. So far in my life, they have saved me at least three times.
88. I have two belly buttons. I really hate when people bring up in public because it is a source of embarrassment. When people find out, I feel I have to act a certain way to put them at ease.
89. I cannot remember my childhood. I know I grew up in a loving and nurturing environment, but for the areas surrounding my surgery/hospital stays it is pretty much a blank. I was five at the time.
90. My favorite TV show is Night Court. I am uber happy because they are being release on DVD. I think it is my favorite show because one of the memories I have in the hospital is watching it with my mom.
91. I am pretty distressed reaching back into those memories right now. Yes, there are some tears in my eyes. If you asked about that time in my life be ready for a blank stare or weeping man.
92. I hate feeling weak or unable to change the course of something.
93. I would not trade my current life for anyone else's right now.
94. It scares me that alot of my friends are married, are getting married or are engaged and I am still single.
95. I like playing poker with friends, but I always feel kinda bad taking their money.
96. It really upsets me when people censor a play they preform not to offend people.
97. I don't understand why people get so offended at some things, but let other things slide.
98. I want my friends to be happy. I really do not like it when they say whatever you want to do, because I don't care about the activity but rather the person.
99. One of my biggest pet peeves is the misuse of you're, your, to, 2, too, r, are, you, u and other AIM typos, even thought I use them.
100. If I get stressed out or upset I got for really long runs and push my body beyond its limit so my physical pain distracts me for my emotional pain. I think I have run 500 miles because of women and only 100 because of school.

May 04, 2005

I have to confess that I have the coolest friends ever...

God that sounds so craptasticly over used.

I realize everyone says that about their friends at some point.

I also realize that every one says "mine are different because..."

Well, guess what: mine are different to, just like everyone else.

Ok, example one: my cat, Spectre. Spectre is about the most non cat of cat that I know to be cat. Most cats are very stand offish and high'n mighty. Not Spectre, I think he thinks he is more of dog then a cat.

But where did I get this ball of fur from?

My friends.

They all came together, paid for his adoption fee, neutering and some of his shots. They also gave me food, a collar, a carrying case, a festive collar, food and water bowl, and litter box stuff. They gave him to me ~29 Oct 2004. Do you know how hard it is to get a black cat that close to Halloween because of the assholes out there who would do them harm?

Not only that, they also threw me a surprise birthday party (my birthday is 18 Nov), so I had pretty much no idea what was happening.

In fact, I thought I might be getting dragged into yet an intervention, which has happened before. But that's another story for another time.

Example 2, AFROTC dining Out:

dining Out is our yearly, year in review, dinner with Air Force ROTC.

My date pretty much bailed out on me the day of the event, which always sucks hardcore. I really don't want to be a social occasion where having a date is almost expected, its social skills training for active duty in a sense.

Anyway, so I get on horn and start calling up female friends, taking a male friend would not be a very good thing in this setting.

The first one I call is busy, but says she is going to call around to try and find a replacement. No dice. It is now about 5:00, it starts at 6:00. I have come to the realization that I more then likely going stag again. I make one more phone call to another friend and she says yes, despite the time crunch. I later find out that she was on campus when I called and she had to basically run to her car and jet home and get dressed in all of 5 minutes.

Now, the funny part is, en route to her place, the first one calls and told me that she found a replacement for her stuff tonight. Ain't life grand?

I felt pretty honored that night that my friends where willing (and did) make the time and effort to help me out in a jam.

Sure my friends may rag on me for my drinking, smoking, language, behavior, study habits, things I say, things I do, and many other things, I know they have my back when the chips are down. Honestly, what more do I need? I maybe poor, but I feel very rich most of the time.

In you're in finals: Good luck.
If not: you suck