April 20, 2005

Life without pain is meaningless.

Somebody told me that people who say that have never experienced pain.

I disagree.

Of course I do, because I feel I have experienced pain.

I think many people assume people mean emotional pain, and ignore physical pain.

Why do we think emotional pain is worse then physical pain?

Many emotional scars take longer to heal. I think everybody has had his or her heart broken or something goes drastically wrong and, yes it takes along time to get over those hurts. Yes, I still have depressed/manic days. That beast ain't dead. Some days I am totally plagued by self-doubt and paranoia. I still have tons of issues in my life that need to be worked out.

I broke my foot back in 1998 or 1999, I can't really remember. It still flares up in pain every now and then. I broke my hand last spring, and every time there is a pressure change (or even a change in the wind) I can tell you. Some days its so bad that I can't make a fist.

So physical pain can take along time to go away also.

I think the whole point of the above is to build equality between the emotional and physical world.

But now we arrive to the real meat of my argument, why pain gives life meaning.

Earlier this year I was in a pretty rough bike accident. I firmly believe that without my helmet I would be six feet under right now. As is was, I only had a minor concussion, slightly dislocated hip, cut up hands and some others scraps and burses. For those brief moments I felt alive. I knew what it meant to ride the edge. While it hurt like hell (for the next few weeks), I was able to understand what was really important to me and how far I can go. And it was one helluva ride.

There have been many times in my life where I come to that point of full contact learning, and I am sure there is going to be more. But, hey, when I die (in some new and exciting way) I can look back and say, 'I didn't waste it.'

This is a work in progress; it will be updated when I gots more thoughts...

Stay Loose

April 19, 2005

I wonder if it is a bad thing that if I twist or move a certain way my peers and classmates dive under tables thinking we are under attack. I think every joint (from my ankle to my neck) pops like a 9mm, its not even funny. I am going to have no joints in ten years. I think I should have taken better care of my body, but where is the fun in that?

There is a storm front moving in, you know how I know: my hand hurts. But its not to big, you know how I know: my knee nor my foot hurts. Bless me and my future doctors...

You scored as Ford Prefect. you know all the ins and outs of the galaxy, because you have your trusty hitchhiker's guide the galaxy. in fact, you are a researcher for the book. unfortunately, while reseaching earth, you got stuck there only to barely escape with your life after it was blown up. you seen everything, and you are as low key as they come.

Ford Prefect

97%

zaphod beeblebrox

77%

Arthur Dent

70%

Trillian

53%

captain of arc B

53%

prostetnic vogon jeltz

50%

marvin

43%

deep thought

43%

slartibartfast

26%

the white mice

17%

what hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy character are you?
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I told you I as so hip I can't see the floor...

April 17, 2005

Last night I found out that a few of my friends consider me a Sci-Fi Cowboy, I can dig it...as long as I can wear spurs

I wonder what kinda a benefits a Sci-Fi Cowboy gets. Does this mean I get to drink and fight with impunity? Is my horse a cyborg horse? Instead of a six shooter and shot gun do I get a laser gun?

Speaking of fights, I nearly got in one last night. The joys of making fun of someone's mom.

On another note: biking and running distances in one day don't feel all that great the next day...

Again, no shit Sherlock...
You scored as Punk/Rebel.

Punk/Rebel

94%

Loner

69%

Drama nerd

63%

Stoner

56%

Ghetto gangsta

50%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

31%

Geek

31%

Goth

25%

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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